Congratulations.
Knowing both of you got together as a couple wasn't easy for me. Especially when I'm having my exam on next week.This eventually makes my mood down and become much more emo than before.
Hey, seriously you don't have to tell me everything, 'Cause I'm not curious in what you do to him and what he do to you. You don't have to emphasize that he's you new boyfriend. It hurts me. I never knew I could fall for him these much. Maybe he knows too much of me, and he can accept it. I have no idea but I do like him. I don't know why but I feels like he's one in a million. But not for now, because he's taken and not available anymore.
I don't have trust issues towards anyone I meet. But now I do. I don't know who to trust anymore. I feels like everyone is just lying to me. Sometimes I just wonder do I look stupid? I'm a forgetful person but I still have memories. You can't stop me from thinking. Things you've told me before, things she had told me before, things you did before, it's all in my head. And I feel like I'm going to collapse soon.
I'll stand up no matter what. I know how I want my life to be. I have a choice. A choice to stand up or break down. A choice to love or hate. A choice to let go or keep holding on.
And my choice? Move on and let go.
Today is the last day I'd ever find you. Just give me a few more days to cool down.
Lately was a disaster.
Never knew I'll met him. Never knew I'll know him. Never knew I'll get hurt.
Things started too fast and I couldn't stop myself from falling in. At least I admit it. He does makes my heart race. But now, it's time to stop. I don't care that you like older and mature girls. But one thing about girls is that, they want themselves to be special, your only one.
I won't care that my boyfriend got a thousand female friends, as long as to him, I'm the only special one. I won't care that my boyfriend hangs out with female friends, as long as he doesn't betray me. Well, maybe you are not the one, and I'm not your The One.
I know I'm strong. I've been through shits. EVERYONE BEEN THROUGH SHITS. SO DON'T EVER COMPARE HOW MUCH HURT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH. You weren't there when I got hurt, you never seen me hurt. You know nothing. So don't ever compare. People gets hurt, YES THEY DO! The only way to save yourself is to stand up! Drowning yourself over emotions won't help. I knew this 'cause I've been through it. Well, maybe that's why he left, 'cause he got that person to take care.
My emotions have been dragging me all along this week. And I couldn't think properly having these emotions around me. And I've become, not me. I feel like shits. I feel that I'm not myself and I talk shits. Offending people 'cause I hadn't really give myself a space to think. I'm sorry for what I've done. Ones should be responsible and accept every consequences to whatever they've done. Ones shouldn't take granted for the opportunity given. Appreciate it! Remember what you've learnt and please do not make the same mistakes again. Be a better person. Forget about shits, and move on!
Next week will be better. Just keep moving. Do what you should do. Achieve whatever you want. Remember how you want your life to be, Being single makes you stronger all the way long and you'll learn not to depend on others. Save yourself.
