看开了

11:04 Unknown 0 Comments

我觉得我开始把他当朋友了，无所不谈，很要好的朋友。

开始觉得，当朋友真的不错。你不需要去害怕伤害对方，不需要害怕分手，更不需要害怕失去。学会祝福，你给的祝福越多，上天会给你更多的回报。祂只是想把最好的留给你，在最美的时机，遇见适合你的人。世界那么大，总会有人爱你。:)

不管怎样，现在最重要的，还是先把书读好。完成自己想做的事。学会靠自己。爱情，可以等。

我要加油。我的人生，还在等着我。

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Time is all I need.

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Owkay. Too much stuff in these few weeks. I just need a lil bit of time for myself. Calm myself down and avoid doing stupid things. I'm giving myself too much pressure. Learn to give, and stop complaining. Everything happens for a reason. Never look down on yourself. Treat everyone the same. Breathe in and out whenever you couldn't think. Calm yourself down. If you wanna cry, just cry it out. If no, suck it in and life moves on. You just gotta live your own life. I used to tell myself to choose a way to live my own life. My choice affects how my life would be. Grow up. Be mature! You still have a long way to go. Stop relying on anybody. They won't give a shit. Just grow up.............

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Letting go.

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Congratulations.


Knowing both of you got together as a couple wasn't easy for me. Especially when I'm having my exam on next week.This eventually makes my mood down and become much more emo than before. 

Hey, seriously you don't have to tell me everything, 'Cause I'm not curious in what you do to him and what he do to you. You don't have to emphasize that he's you new boyfriend. It hurts me. I never knew I could fall for him these much. Maybe he knows too much of me, and he can accept it. I have no idea but I do like him. I don't know why but I feels like he's one in a million. But not for now, because he's taken and not available anymore.

I don't have trust issues towards anyone I meet. But now I do. I don't know who to trust anymore. I feels like everyone is just lying to me. Sometimes I just wonder do I look stupid? I'm a forgetful person but I still have memories. You can't stop me from thinking. Things you've told me before, things she had told me before, things you did before, it's all in my head. And I feel like I'm going to collapse soon. 

I'll stand up no matter what. I know how I want my life to be. I have a choice. A choice to stand up or break down. A choice to love or hate. A choice to let go or keep holding on. 

And my choice? Move on and let go.

Today is the last day I'd ever find you. Just give me a few more days to cool down. 

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有时候…

05:24 Unknown 0 Comments

有时候，我真的想要人陪。

你说我外表坚强，内心却很脆弱。可是，你却没有在我脆弱的时候陪着我。我知道我们认识不久，可是那个时候你给我的感觉，就是你明白我受过的伤害，你知道我的很多事情，你说到好像你会保护我。可是到最后，什么都没有。

我真心感觉你喜欢她，从行为举止，说话方式。现在不是谁先遇见谁，谁就会爱上谁。说到头男人还是视觉系动物。你说她漂亮，说她需要人照顾。可是你不知道，我也需要，只是我不说，也不会表现出来。因为我知道，自己如果不坚强，懦弱给谁看。我受过伤，我坚强一路走来。你知道的，并不是所有事情，真正令我受到最大伤害的事，你不知道。

我讨厌你对她好，对她温柔体贴。在爱情面前，谁不自私。可是我又不可能破坏人家的感情。所以我真的讨厌爱情，你不知道你什么时候会遇到对的人。你觉得你遇到了，结果却并不是。本来我真的没有想恋爱，可是遇见你好像打开了我的心房。可是你却狠狠的走开，把门狠狠的关上。现在的我懦弱无助。看来这次我又得自己疗伤了。;')

不管以后怎样，祝福你们。我，退出。

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Lately.

23:13 Unknown 0 Comments

Lately was a disaster.

Never knew I'll met him. Never knew I'll know him. Never knew I'll get hurt. 
Things started too fast and I couldn't stop myself from falling in. At least I admit it. He does makes my heart race. But now, it's time to stop. I don't care that you like older and mature girls. But one thing about girls is that, they want themselves to be special, your only one.

I won't care that my boyfriend got a thousand female friends, as long as to him, I'm the only special one. I won't care that my boyfriend hangs out with female friends, as long as he doesn't betray me. Well, maybe you are not the one, and I'm not your The One.

I know I'm strong. I've been through shits. EVERYONE BEEN THROUGH SHITS. SO DON'T EVER COMPARE HOW MUCH HURT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH. You weren't there when I got hurt, you never seen me hurt. You know nothing. So don't ever compare. People gets hurt, YES THEY DO! The only way to save yourself is to stand up! Drowning yourself over emotions won't help. I knew this 'cause I've been through it. Well, maybe that's why he left, 'cause he got that person to take care. 

My emotions have been dragging me all along this week. And I couldn't think properly having these emotions around me. And I've become, not me. I feel like shits. I feel that I'm not myself and I talk shits. Offending people 'cause I hadn't really give myself a space to think. I'm sorry for what I've done. Ones should be responsible and accept every consequences to whatever they've done. Ones shouldn't take granted for the opportunity given. Appreciate it! Remember what you've learnt and please do not make the same mistakes again. Be a better person. Forget about shits, and move on!

Next week will be better. Just keep moving. Do what you should do. Achieve whatever you want. Remember how you want your life to be, Being single  makes you stronger all the way long and you'll learn not to depend on others. Save yourself. 

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