Well, it's still not the right time for me to start a new relationship but it's fine to have someone you really like right? But you doesn't want them to know and you doesn't want to start any relationship with them. Ok, am I being normal here? Who the fuck wouldn't want a relationship with someone they really fancy? Anyway, that's what I thought tho. I wouldn't want to hurt anybody right now. I wouldn't even dare to think whatever LOVE WILL LAST FOREVER stuff. 'Cause it just doesn't. Instead of him being hurt, I prefer to be the one who hurts. Trauma after the last relationship? I guess so. 

I'm the type of person who would think of the things that might happen in a long run IF I ever have a boyfriend. I keep imagining him looking hurt, i keep imagining myself to be his burden, I keep imagining shits! This is just what the fuck. Too much negative thinking. I just want my life to be back to normal, the way it used to be before I even met my EX! But whatever, 'cause I couldn't turn back the time. So MOVE ON BITCH! 

Here goes my butterfly, flying in the sky...........