Don't let the fear swallow you.

Sometimes I'm just scared, scared of losing something or someone. Why blame me? I know I've got a choice back then. I made my choice but nobody cares. I hate waiting. Sometimes I just scared that I waited and waited and get no reply. And sometimes I'm just hate myself for being care so much when somebody might not even care. 

I hate myself for being so doubtful. I know I shouldn't think too much about it, being doubtful about how people really feels towards me, being doubtful whether they actually hated me, being doubtful about did my decisions pleased them, doubtful about everything. I don't want to lose anyone because I'm just being too doubtful. I hope they understands. Well, those who really know you does stay by your side I guess. Those whom I don't have to feel doubtful, cause' I know they'll be by my side when I need them.

Chase away everything and be myself. Everything has its right or wrong. 

Just be strong. 

上了大学才知道，身边对你真实的人不多。有的选择利用你，有的选择无视你、鄙视你、伤害你。有时真的不知道什么时候才能对一个人卸下心防。不知道为什么这个月真的很伤感，想起很多东西。但是又觉得自己应该好好过生活。得知朋友要到吉隆坡升学，心情更加低落。瞬间才觉得：“啊！原来是这样的感觉。"

虽然说只是去读个书，你也可以骂我说又不是不回来。但是当你感觉到你失去的并不是朋友，而是那些对你最真实的人，你就会明白为什么离别会如此伤感。缘分这个东西，很搞怪。你也不能保证，几年后大家还是能够见面；也不能保证，他们还会不会回到当初这个地方。先是舍不得，后是想念。真的，我开始舍不得了。

到了新的地方好好照顾自己。大学生活不简单。认识来自不同地方的朋友，教会你的东西也不一样。对别人不要单方面的好。不要被欺负，要坚强。伤心、压力、不开心，电话随时接。生活也许会难过，但是随时提醒自己，你们可以的！等你们回来！

There are a lots of things that you'll learn after you start your university life. The first few weeks are just normal. You went to campus everyday, go to lectures, attend tutorial class and make sure you never missed it, meeting new people coming from everywhere. I thought everything was okay, until things start to get worst. People start to show their true colours, whether they are just using you. And you just have to endure it. Misunderstanding and argument between course mates just add in much more pressure and stress to your life. Conflicts that never happened before happened. I have never encountered such conflicts before during my secondary. And now I'm dealing with it. Please! You are not that mature, so don't act like you are mature than anyone of us. You are just childish in solving your own problems. Dragging everyone down and adding more and more problems. Please! Grow up! I know I'm 20 and I'm not very mature too. But at least I know how to solve my own problems! We just couldn't please everybody. Anyway, I'll probably be meeting the same kind of people next time when I get out of this society. And I hope by that time I know how to deal with this kind of people. People in University just sounds so complicated. Maybe it's because we all come from different places and have different mindset on the things happened around us. Haters gonna hate though. I don't care whether you hate me or not cause' I don't lose anything by losing you. So back off, coward!